To Be Or Not To Be
April 25th, 2006
I miss Kate.
We had an AIM conversation this weekend where we pretty much revisited the interview we had. She had a few questions after reviewing the video of the interview and we pretty much got into a discussion of where we stand.
More or less this is the situation. I love Kate, and I want to be with her. However, I don’t want to hurt her again. She loves me, and wants to be with me, but doesn’t want to get hurt again. So pretty much It comes down to whether or not I’m going to freak out again. I don’t think I can know for sure either way. I thought this is about how I felt in November when we got together, but I’ve beginning to realize that its a bit different. In November I missed her so I wanted to give it another chance. This time I miss her, but there’s more. I feel like part of me is missing without her.
I’m afraid she is going to move on, and I’m going to lose her forever. I don’t want to let that happen, but I am still a bit hesitant that I could hurt her again. I know things are different this time, but it’s up to her to decide if it’s worth the risk.
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